Breaking no contact

I have felt so good lately.

Why not be friendly?

If I don't want him back he can't manipulate me right?

I chatted with him this morning and he told me how he's been sober 6 days.  How his eyes have been opened to his ex and he wants nothing to do with her.

He offered to fly with me to my brother's bootcamp graduation.

We were nice as pie.

I drove by his house tonight to put some of his mail in his box and his ex wife's jeep was in the driveway.  Bedroom lights the only lights on in the house.

Something is wrong with him.  Something is wrong with her.

I mean, I already knew that, right?

But the psychological trigger for me was bad.  I felt so angry and betrayed.  

But it's pathetic.  Really pathetic.  On both their parts.

But who else does he have? She's always there as backup when he drives everyone else away.

And they dwell in misery.

I am beautiful.

I am smart.

I have a professional job.

I own my own home.

I have friends and people who love me.

I don't lie and manipulate and play games as if people are toys.

I can't talk to him at all.  Something is really wrong with him.