Pathetic

With both of my most recent serious relationships, I look back at these men and wonder how I could have been involved with that person.

It's because I compromise my boundaries.

I feel guilty making a judgement on someone.

I feel like if I reject them as a lover I'm rejecting them as a human being.

There are other reasons but those are how I got past their faults, their weakness.

What an embarrassment my most recent ex has turned out to be.  I can't believe I ever idealized him or our relationship.