Victim

Reading the Trauma Bonding book last night I learned that I am programmed to give my personal power away and to be a victim.

I realize now when I use the word "submissive" this is what I mean.

I always considered myself a strong and independent person because I have always taken care of myself and others and never depended financially or physically on anyone.

But now I realize I am emotionally submissive.

I know I need to set boundaries. I know I need to retain my person power. I just don't know HOW.

I wish I could find a counselor. It's so intimidating and confusing to seek one out. And expensive. :(

I just feel like I need to talk to someone who is trained and can help me figure out a path to recovery.