I found out he made a play for his best friend's wife this weekend and has consequently lost that friend.
He e-mailed me today and told me he has never felt so alone.
By 5pm he was asking if there was a chance for reconciliation between us.
I was almost insulted.
How much of a sucker does he really think I am?
He screws up his closest friendship and then thinks I will just take him back? After he could have cared less about my loneliness and pain the past month and a half?
It's obvious he needs ego supply. He's got people in town now that know he cheated on me and now people who will know he made a play for his friend's wife.
I feel happy to be rid of him but at the same time I feel immense pity.
That pity I feel is so dangerous to me. I don't like to think of him facing up to himself, of facing up to the consequences of his actions.
I strove for 3 years to protect him from that.
At the same time I feel validated. He isn't the trustworthy, noble, honorable man he was constantly saying he was.
Cheating on me was not an exception in his personality.
The constant in his personality is that HE comes first. No matter what the cost to himself and others.
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